“I had an animal encyclopaedia, it was one of my favourite books. It started with the mammals, then there were amphibians and reptiles, insects and fishes, and at the very end deep water fishes. The fact that those monsters existed somewhere in cold dark waters was filling me with dread. It was making me question the very sense of world I was living in, making it crumble all around. I kept looking at it every single day. A part of me was expecting the encyclopaedia to end differently, another one was going after that disgusting sensation and was building up anticipation for it”.